Stepping Into the Unknown

17 years.  That’s how long I have been a dedicated and loyal employee to the company I have been working for.  That all comes to an end today.  My tenure and loyalty to this company did not save me from the latest wave of layoffs.  They blamed it on COVID-19.  They said times are unprecedented and the company needs to make sweeping cuts.  That excuse did nothing to numb the sting.  Now I’m faced with how to provide for a large family in a time when unemployment is at the highest level we’ve seen since the ’08 recession. I’d be lying if I didn’t say that this has rattled me to my core.  I’m really starting to wonder how all of this is supposed to play out with regards to what my ultimate goals are.  Either the Universe is pushing me towards my ultimate destination, or all of this is just a pipe dream and our thoughts have no real effect on our outer environment.

Right now, I choose to believe that this is part of a necessary next step in my evolution.  I’ve known for some time that my vibration was no longer in sync with the job I had.  It was only a matter of time before the wheels came off.  I’m in the unknown now.  No matter how much I told myself I was prepared to step into it, there’s no preparing.  It’s a scary place.  My mind is overflowing with thoughts of what’s next, how do I support my family, am I worthy and hirable..? 

The best place to create is not from the known, but the unknown… the best way to predict your future is to create it.. Dr. Joe’s words are repeating themselves in the deep recesses of my mind over and over.  Here it is.  A blank canvass.  A chance to create something that will liberate me from the chains of the past and enable me to fly to the stratosphere.  This is me showing faith in the process and letting go, however unwillingly, of the things that were holding me back.  Now is my time to shine.  Godspeed.